You & I Both ♥

 So, hey, its been awhile. I had a blog written on the beginning of October, however when I was about to copy paste it from my notes, I accidentally erased it instead. Grrrr, I hated myself for that! Anyway, I have a short and sweet one here and I hope you guys enjoy it...

    Did you know: “Someday, someone will walk into your life and make you realise why it never worked out with anyone else.” It makes me feel grateful, and foolish in a way when I thought of all the sad moments of my life, and why I have put myself in so much pain, not realising that I will meet someone who will make me really happy. I tell my friends, maybe its like practise, if it was a game, you kind of try your best to be good  however bad things are going and tell yourself that you are a good person and that maybe someday, just maybe, someone good will come your way, and maybe, just maybe, you'll be lucky this time around. Well, it seems like this time around I have the good luck!

  It feels good to know that you belong to someone and that this someone belongs to you too! I suppose the challenge then lies on how long you can keep it up, and that, my friends, will be the interesting part of the journey and as Jason Mraz sang, " if you could see me now, well then I'm almost finally out of, finally out of, finally dedeedeeedeee, well then I'm almost finally out of words."

Jumping Into the Scary Pool

This bit, I admittedly find challenging and I am not going to lie about it! Its not so easy for most people  to admit that they are lonely and in need of a "special someone" in their life to fill in the void. But I am getting a little sick of waiting for things to happen. So I have started slowly by downloading this dating app on my phone. This is, in hoping that this is the beginning of trying to shift my gears from dipping a toe in to jumping in feet first.

 Its amazing to see how many people put their self out there on this things and what you can actually learn from them by just reading their profiles. Some of them will admittedly say that they just want fuck buddies and some will give you, what I think, to be an honest to goodness thought out profile. Some can just deceive you and after chatting with them for a little while and making you think 'hmmm, there might be something here', will ruin it and send you a picture of their wiener, complete with a video! Well, I suppose its part of the experience, I just hope that there are still good fishes swimming out there and its not so hard to identify them from the sharks & piranhas....

Sucker for Flyby Boys!

 I was walking to get my bus one day and I had to laugh at myself cause I realised how much of a sucker I am for people who leaves. I'm really not sure what it is, it seems that when people who are close to me plans to change their life and move somewhere, I am right smack in the middle of their life getting more involved, as if its a mission for me to actually be there to assist with their every need and make sure that everything is in place or everything is sorted. This energy seems to draw me in the centre and leaves me drained and exhausted afterwards. It makes me think if this is a pattern and if this is the reason why I am not with anyone...

Its like a cartoon, put someone there who has a a travelling bag or am planning to leave for the betterment of their lives and "Wham!" "Owl in Dublin at your service!" Oh, you're feeling insecure about your decision? " I'm here to tell you that its OK to feel that way and it will pass and you're going to be OK. You don't feel comfortable about this or that, DO NOT FEAR, cause I am here and I will try my best to ease your discomfort. You are feeling horny and you need some loving, COME TO ME and I will give you some intimacy. If I have a super power, it would probably be a long the lines of being a little geeky, cause I love reading and making people come to terms with their inner peace.
  Funny cause not a lot of people can actually make me feel at peace with myself....

Haughty Bitch You're in the Wrong Hotel!

 It was just half an hour before I finish my shift and this haughty lady came up with a lot of attitude to me and was telling me that they are checking in. So I politely asked for her last name, trying my best not to get on her nerves as she seems properly wound up. Her name was not on our system so I was asking her if she has any confirmation number which she said was with her husband. When her husband came she asked if we were "such & such" hotel and I said "oh Madam no, we are the "Wouldn't really want Bitches like you Hotel" and as Concierge was hauling the trolley laden with their luggage, I motioned that they have got the wrong hotel and to take those bags out.
  As we were talking about them at the back office, we were laughing cause, this lady came in seeming to be high and mighty when they got off from their taxi apparently this was how it went:

Haughty Lady: Hello bellman!! can you bring down our luggage. Oh my God its raining! My husband, do you have any umbrellas? (not even bothering to listen to the bellman, goes inside the hotel).
Owl: Good morning madame! Checking in?
Haughty Lady: (looking stressed and wound up) Yes, check in, last name Stuck-upbitch...(repeats this constantly).
Owl: Uhmm, let me see.... I cannot find your name on our system... do you have any confirmation number?
Haughty Lady: My husband has it...(repeats her last name again, as if I did not hear it the first time... husband comes in) do you have the confirmation number dear? We were booked from American Express...
Owl: Oh, ok, (looks in the system again)...
Haughty Lady: is this the "Such & Such" hotel?
Owl: Oh no. Sorry you're in the wrong hotel...(good riddance! motions to the Concierge to take the bags out of the hotel immediately).
 
   Why do people put themselves into such a state for no reason? They end up stupidly getting agitated with things and just wind up embarrassing themselves and people around them. For some reason they let the stressful things take control of them rather than them taking control of the stressful situation. If they just take one deep breath and say to themselves: "I'm glad we arrived in Dublin safely, I feel a bit tired, but only a few more minutes and I will be in the hotel where I can rest." and put their minds at ease, cause  they are on a holiday, then maybe they can enjoy themselves more.

Whine-a-holics Anonymous

 Just one of those regular days at work where you are expecting to just have a normal shift, so you come up to the desk and ask your colleague in a mildly cheerful manner how the day has gone and you can immediately see on her face "Oh, here goes...

Whiner1: Oh, I'm so tired...

Owl: Oh right, was it busy?

Whiner1:Yeah, it just got really busy right now and I'm not sure what I'm doing anymore. I feel so tired cause my baby was crying the whole night last night and I didn't get any sleep at all. I was working nights for the last few nights and it was just a killer.... blah,blah,blah...

Owl: Oh, OK, is there anything I can do to help you there.

Whiner1: Oh yeah, can you please look after this one thing, cause I did not get to do it from my task list and blah,blah,blah....

Owl: Oh, yeah sure, you go ahead and go inside and finish up there, so you don't get interrupted.

Enter Whiner2

Owl: Hi, how are you?

Whiner2: I'm good, except for the fact that one of the girls I was working with left me to do more work than I had to, so I really do not want to help anybody anymore cause I just end up getting used.

Owl: Oh, I'm sorry that's how you feel. Silence.....

  What is the deal with people! Why the hell do they think I care about the choices that they made with their lives. I have decided not to have children at this stage so I can have a quiet life so I really do not give a rats ass if your baby kept you up all night and its not my problem if you don't have the balls to tell your colleague that what she has done to you is not nice and to please not do it again! I am NOT your damned shrink man!

 It may seem a bit cruel and UN-emphatic but Hey! I have worries too and it may not be deemed serious or stressful to anybody but for me it is, and I do not go out whining it for everybody to vouch for freaking sympathy, just because someone seems to be listening, it does not mean to say that they are in an emphatic mood.

  Anybody want to open a Whine-a-holics Anonymous?!? I can recommend it to a few people I know...

Eskimo Dream

 My workmate was looking for the meaning of her dream and I remembered one of the last dreams I had. I was travelling with a group of people and we were Eskimos, it feels like the group of people I was travelling with is my family and I was a kid in the dream. We were walking to go from one point to the other  and we know that we are in danger of being caught by some bad people, so we were walking in one big group, knowing that if one gets separated, one will be in danger. We have developed a means to hide from the bad people and this is by covering ourselves in snow, which will look like we got frozen while on journey. We suddenly felt like bad is coming and we got ourselves covered in snow in time, we have to put a hole at one end of our snow covering for us to be able to breathe. I have to make sure that the hole is open. The bad people came and one of them looks in the hole and I can see his face so I closed my eyes and pretended to be dead so he could not harm us. He blew on my face and waited for a reaction and when he did not get any he shoved some snow on the hole just to make sure we're dead. I got worried cause we will not be able to breath, but there was another hole on top of the snow covering us so we were ok.

I woke up and felt relief...

Another One Bites the Dust...

Why is it that when you meet someone good and someone you think you can get along with really well and not pretend that you are somebody else, Murphy’s law kicks you in the butt and makes you realise that, “ girl! Whatever it is that you’re hoping to happen here, is not going to happen, not to you and not this time. It sucks!

  Sorry , I suppose I have not been visited by feelings of  sadness for awhile and unfortunately for me, this emotion is often accompanied by its miserable friends, bitter and selfish. It just seems like I have become very fond of , lets just say, a nice pair of pants, and now that I have been really comfortable wearing it and having it with me every time I travel , life has decided to take it away from me and I’m not ready to let go of my favourite pants, not just yet. If the choice is solely mine, I will keep it with me for a really long time, cause my other favourite pairs were taken from me as well and for some reason I know that it will probably take awhile before I can find another pair that fits perfectly. Its not fair!

  Its almost the same feeling I have whenever my Dad has to go to work and leave us for almost 9 to 10 months at a time, you just feel, helpless, cause you know he has to go and you cant do anything about it…You’re just left to deal with this feeling until I suppose just like everything else, time makes it a bit better…

  Thank God for good friends, they will always pick you up and let you know that, you are a good person and that this will pass and something good or maybe even better will come along. It sounds like a cliche but it does make you feel a little stronger and helps you move along.